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well.. well... i only have some time to spare, so i guess i shall just blog a short and fast entry today. was at tuition today, and for the first time the whole room was filled with ppl, pretty suprised in the sudden surge of class attendance. Hahaha...i guessed its becauz everyone must have pressed the emergency button, since the O's are drawing nearer and nearer? EvA was there too, we didn't realli absorbed much, yea?! just sat there and talk rubbish haha. After the tuition, she received a call and her dad sent her home. Bloody hell pang seh me again. lol.
haha..oh yeas... did i tell u guys
my competition is on this sat? haha yea...track and field...i am back... 3 times lousier den last time. I have never imagined myself in such a plight 3 yrs ago, never, ahhaha can u believe it .. this time round, i gotta struggle to get into the final top 8 positions.
I guess things have changed... my performance, my injury, my shitty throwing style hahah.. and last but not least my perception of such competitions. In the past I used to LOVE attending such competitions ... a chance to really show what you are made off, a day where all your hard work gets paid off, and a day where can finally get a bite of your precious gold medal.
Now...haha.. I am not even looking forward to it at all. I guess its because of the fact that i will never have the slightest chance to produce good results at all...what a loser eh ? heh. haha.. oh wells... in everi comp. there has to be the first, the mediocres, and the cannot make it... i shall juz be a mediocre this time den. oh wells..accept it, i am far from being the best now.. good luck to myself lol (:
posted @ 10:32 PM
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20050323
Will be talking more about the previous post.
Friendship for a reason...a life or a season..
You can just view it as another perception , its not the ultimate truth... However, the article made me pretty upset... The friendships that we are clinging on to dear life, friendships that we treasure so much, ...why must it end no matter how hard we try to maintain it? Do we have to deal with friendships with such a fatalistic approach. Accept the inevitable, and move on with life with an imcomplete piece in the puzzle of life... ...
Many of us have went through the process of a drifting friendship, but we all have different ways of responding to it... a different way of facing reality. Some of us continue to lead life as per normal, accepting friends as they come and go as we go through the journey of life. For others... a drifting friendship is nothing but a painful...and excruciating process. The world seems to have spin faster, but he who yearns for nothing, but to relive the past, stays put at where he is, lost in a world of his own, a world that is meaningless in his eyes, and nothing that he does matter any more.
As he experiences this pain over and over again...he finally gained a clearer understanding of friendship; and finds out that after a certain point of time, the more he expresses his need for a friendship to go on, the worst the friendship gets. As such, after much consideration, he decides to control himself, puts up an act to show that he doesn't really cares about friendships. The pretence is also an attempt to make this his natural character trait, as he hopes to be like others, leading a solitary life without experiencing much pain. As the play goes on... his mind is caught in a whirl of conflicting thoughts...and one day he just breaks down and cry...realizing that he has made a grave mistake from the start, complicating issues that were originally simple. Now he felt even lonelier then ever.
(its just a story i ain't refering to anione in particular)
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Somethings in our character just can't be changed. People who are like "him", when we get into such situations... its inevitable that we get hurt. Learn from your mistakes and make some adjustments when you get into another important friendship, but never attempt to change yourself totally...You are what you are...trust me for a drastic change like this, the results are never good....but devastating...
sigh...friendship...
unforgotten memories that I will hold on to for a long long time.
never mind if i walk off with a tear in my eye.
I am still contented as long as you're happy.
posted @ 10:22 PM
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argh...i spent a great deal of time blogging some real stuff yesterday, but my sis closed it ah....how sucky man...it took quite some time.
something interesting here that is worth reading:
A Reason A Season and A Lifetime
People always come into you life for a reason, a season and a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend to you, and they are. They are there for a reason, you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die, Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.
Lifetime, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a slid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being part of my life....
©Brain A. Drew Chalker.
argh..i had a pretty bad eye injury while plaein basketball ytd. Some dude just swipe his finger across my eye, and the eyeball bled. Went to doct today fortunately the pupil wasn't injured.. and she said eye injuries heal pretty fast...yup... everything is fine. except for the bloody pus that clogs the eye occasionally. Alright i shall stop making you guys feel disgusted ^^.
posted @ 10:52 AM
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oh sheesh... i have been eating and eating and eating continuously for the past few days... its pretty scary now.. thanx to eva, yesterdae, had two servings of LUNCH, (one packed lunch),(crispy duck noodle at ps), a kaya WAFFLE, two servings of DINNER ( Mushroom Swiss Meal), and (Nasi Lemak At home), and AN ADDITIONAL 8 DOLLAR VALUE PACK ice cream from VENEZIA!n gosh!
And as for todae, I alreadi had THREE servings of lunch, (one packed lunch), (one plate of curry rice and chicken), and one set of beef steak at prince. And TOMORROW, going for SAKAE SUSHI. Omg...I'm gonna be a fat ass soon.
alrite thats enuf of blogging crap stuff. haha.
Just read finished the book "the five people u met in heaven" by Mitch Albom, excellent book... you can actually learn a lot from it...and the story is pretty short, managed to finish it in 2 days. Excellent plot I must say... all loopholes are covered at the end of the story. Also had this ...funny feeling.. which i had never experienced before after reading the entire book... I felt really comforted... and strangely this made me feel like crying... (but i didn't of course, since i was on the bus) haha..
Mitch Albom:
Lost love is still love... ... It takes a different form that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes you partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.
posted @ 3:42 PM
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Went to the esplanade to catch a jazz concert with grace yesterdae..
its called
Beautiful Sunday:
Babes & Friends - Sunday's Cool
Yup yup, this performance is part of the ongoing Mosiac Festival. Its really fantastic, and guess what? its free! I was astonished when I heard about this initially, and besides, the 1hr long event was held in the concert hall. I wasn't expecting much initially, since it was a free concert. However, it didn't turned out the way i guessed it would be, I never imagined that it would be that awesome. Especially when the jazz pieces were played.. oh gosh. u could just feel that impact and your heart melting, haha.
The jazz band includes a drumer, a basist, a saxaphonist, and of course the pianist-cum-singer. The performances are sooo classy and "sexy?" haha.. i (cant find a better word!)? I promise, its a totally different experience hearing a live performance, as compared to just hearing these jazz pieces on a player. Hmmm besides jazz, other songs like "close to you", a familiar favourite yea?, was played in the concert as well.
One thing special about this concert is that, the performer engages the audience very well (something that is really rare for a performance in the esplanade), and she speaks and acts very very naturally throughout the entire performance. Oh yea.. shes also the vocal instructor of the Singapore Idol finalists, and the entire gang was there to support her as well.
The performance was rather short...wished it was longer.. aniwaes headed for the library to grab a book that contains jazz piano pieces, yup gonna learn "fly me to the moon" ,singing and playing together, thereafter had tea with grace for quite a while and met Ronald at harbourfront for dinner.
A pretty fruitful day indeed! i still gotta thank u grace for informing me about the performance! Yep cheers to soul music!!
posted @ 10:10 PM
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I guess in times when you are broken or shattered within... you still have to maintain that positive attitude, isn't that
leaving LIVING(THANK YOU EVA) life to the fullest?
Rejoice and celebrate each time your heart is broken, as only when this happens, the light can enter... Not until you have felt the pain of suffering, can you know how others suffer. With each challenge you face in life, if it doesn't kills you, it makes you stronger instead. After the experience of a broken heart, you become more beautiful and attractive to the world, and you are one step ahead of the rest, for you have learnt a precious lesson, and hopefully you are never to commit the same mistakes again... ...
a coin has 2 sides.
posted @ 10:32 AM
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hmm its been a while since i blogged yea? couple of things happened over the week... hahah...firstly aphellion night...
Well, honestly didn't felt good after the performance because it was a pretty bad screw up..and it was quite off my normal performance. hahah and the worst thing that could ever happen, happened!! the piano stopped for abt 15 seconds!!
And for the pair performance with Dao Teng... could sense that something was not right too... couldn't hear myself and make the necessary adjustments to my singing.
Well! It's all OVER!! NEvertheless i had a wonderful, sleepless night i guess haha..
I would say that this is one of the best aphellion nights, haha...lookin at the entire event as a whole from an audience perspective, as well as the participation of our special guests! frm SNGS(awesome audiences!), with two of my good pals among them, I was indeed motivated to TRY my best for my performances, which i didn't managed to of course haha.
The only sad thing is that many sec 1s & 2s are just talking and cheering at the most inappropriate moments...Gosh...never knew they could be so immature.. :S
last yr, my class was one of the classes which hosted the gals frm st nicks as well. Regretted being such a dao shit. or else i could have made some more new friends. haha... sigh..nvm its okay!
Honestly i was pretty amazed by myself, in learning the song in such a short period of time. Never knew i could do it...haha..but my purpose of performing wasn't to fight for the title..or gain attention.. in fact I was forced on stage and this is my first time performing in school? I just wanted an opportunity to express myself, my feelings, and I guess this was the perfect occasion, so i just chiong! and in the end...the performance not abit the screwed up la.. -_-
~!~!tag board replies!~!~
eVa: this is a damn nice and relaxing song lor.u arse!
aUd:eh mai hao liao ler.!lol
xiang:no la!! screw up lor! fans also all run liao!
posted @ 7:35 PM
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haha.. a change of plans...
We have alreadi arrived upon the decision that my solo performance would be An Jing, would be playing the piano and singing at the same time...definitely an extreme challenge.. and I will be singing Dong Feng Po with DT.
Hope All things go well tonight!...
doesn't matter if i win or lose.....
posted @ 5:27 PM
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